F I R S T

Our “firsts” in life, admit it or not, were undeniably memorable. Our first achievement, first overnight stay with friends, first taste of signature food of a fancy resto, our first experience of a certain thing, our first adventure and even our first encounter of people who were strangers back then  but now have become our true friends ... all those, for sure, were cherished. We felt definite pleasure when we experienced those. Without a doubt,  FIRST is really different.

But what if it didn’t turn that way? I mean what if those firsts that we’ve experienced were not as exciting and fun at all? What if that first just caused us pain and left us hanging? What if that first just left a deep cut in our heart? Heartbreaking.

My very good friend, Ms. A, requested me to have a song review of Sheryl Crow's The First Cut is the Deepest 

"The First Cut Is The Deepest"

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
If you want I'll try to love again,
Baby, I'll try to love again.

This song is obviously about a woman who has fallen deeply in love with her first boyfriend.  HAHA! (at ako talaga ang magdidiscuss nito). I know that when we fall in love we give our all. What I mean is, we put our full effort, time and attention to it. We tend to find ways just to make sure that the relationship is going well. Agree? (MAHAL mo eh!) 

Until that first break-up ...  when that one person whom you gave your all left you behind. When that one person whom you first spent most of your time with just let you pick your broken pieces alone.( THAT LITTLE PRICK!!!) The feeling of "I DON'T DESERVE IT" is normal. People who have been heartbroken tend to go emo and do stuffs that aren't proper.  I know, I'm not in the position to sit here and act like as if I know everything about love but let me tell you this. YOU, yes you, DESERVE BETTER. 

If you try to read and fully understand the lyrics of the song, it's as if the girl is talking to another guy. She's asking the guy to stay, to help her forget the pain brought by her first lover. I'm honestly against the idea of using someone to forget things that had happened in the past,of using someone as REBOUND. Why? Think about this. You were once hurt by that one inconsiderate person. That person who used you, who took everything away from you, your love, your trust, your ego. Then, you'll gonna ask someone to stay beside you, giving him or her a vague idea that you'll give love another try. If you do that, what made you different from that person who gave you your first heartbreak? YOU'RE ALL THE SAME! 

I've learned that people can't escape from pain. Moreover, moving on is not letting go. It's just pure ACCEPTANCE. You can say that you have moved on because you have accepted the idea that what you were before is different from what you are now.  Life is about accepting that things might get worse or might get better. It's accepting that life has its own lessons that are well hidden from every pain. So there, stop hating. 

Ms. A used to tell me that "first will always be the worst". Maybe yes, maybe not. But one thing is for sure, whether it's first or not it will surely leave a big mark and spot in our lives. Remember all your "firsts" even if it's painful and learn from it. Be a better person, spread the love! 

Love, 

JOJO

(this one's for you Ms. A (confidential ka!) I've known you since 1st year college and I am really thankful that you're just there ready to hear my every rants. :)) thank you for giving me pieces of advice and I must admit that I've learned a lot from you. Don't worry about our round face anymore, it's indeed a blessing. maswerte tayo 'no! again, THANK YOU, true friend!)